No words

I wrote this on Friday, May 11, 2007

There are really no words for how I'm feeling right now. So I find it hard that I'm sitting in front of this screen trying to put something down.

Today is going to be one of those tough days.

Today would be my friend Brett Cemer's 40th birthday. He died almost three years ago after an inspiring struggle with brain cancer. He was one of the most caring, thoughtful, and passionate people I have ever met. Plus he was fun and funny, smart, articulate, beautiful and charming. When we first met, he made me nervous yet at the same time put me at ease. It wasn't long till I felt like we'd known each other for years. Having him in my life for the brief time I was able enriched me beyond belief. I miss him.

Later today, I will be with friends celebrating the life of another man who touched the lives and hearts of many, including mine. Dave Kappele died suddenly on Saturday, May 5th in Guelph. Dave and I have been friends about 13 years or so after meeting during our work with the Canadian Federation of Students.

Those were intense times...being younger, idealistic and consumed...but it made those relationships intense too. We connected quickly and spent many hours working hard, talking long and laughing.

Dave was one of those people in my life who has put up with his share from me. I trusted him so much and he was always there when I needed him. He knew the good, the bad and the ugly and yet still loved me. He just seemed to "get" me. I will always be grateful for how safe, understood and loved he made me feel. Even after being out of touch for long periods of time, we picked up virtually where we left off.

I realize now that he's gone that we took time for granted. At least I did. I always thought there would be more. More work, more talk, more laughs..more.

I know I am so lucky to have had two friends like Brett and Dave in my life.

I know that.