stage of life

so who thought I wasn't phased by my latest birthday? I really thought I wasn't.

Okay, so I sort of avoided making plans...dithering like a Liberal in government for 13 years. Suck it up, I though to myself. So I quickly invited people for food and a night of festing. Not sure if it helped or not. It ended in karaoke so that should say enough. At least it distracted me.

Then a couple of events over the next week made me feel out of sorts with my life - as the last post will show. As my therapist of many years reaffirmed this sounds like a "stage of life" moment. You know, the kind when you look at where you are and take stock. Sometimes, we find ourselves wishing we'd made different choices; other times we're grateful at where we are.

I suppose I'm feeling the effects of my choices over years. Not necessarily wrong choices; I know I made them for good reasons at the time. I know I have a good life.

Thing to focus on right now is that I want to make it better.