Twitterpated: From the http://www.urbandictionary.com/define.php?term=twitterpated
1. twitterpated
1)to be completely enamored with someone/something. 2) the flighty exciting feeling you get when you think about/see the object of your affection. 3) romantically (ahem) excited (i.e.: aroused) 4) the ever increasing acceleration of heartbeat and body temperature as a result of being engulfed amidst the exhilaration and joy of being/having a romantic entity in someone's life.
When he smiled at her, the rush of "warm, fuzzy, excited" sensations that filled her made her realized she ws completely twitterpated with this man.
2. twitterpated
An enjoyable disorder characterized by feelings of excitement, anticipation, high hopes, recent memories of interludes, giddiness, and physical overstimulation which occur simultaneously when experiencing a new love. These feelings take over without warning, usually at odd times (such as at a check-out line), with or without the partner present, and make it difficult to concentrate on anything but romance. They interfere with work and safe driving, but should be experienced at least once in every person's lifetime.
"Lisa is too twitterpated to even get a good night's sleep ever since she met David."
3. twitterpated
1. the happy jumpy feeling you get that causes you to smile uncontrolably. 2. the way birds and other animals act during mating season (as seen in Bambi)
1. Vianne gets twitterpated when Marcos touches her cheak.2. "The birds gettin all twitterpated," said the owl. (Disney's Bambi really is a good movie.)
Don't know exactly where to begin except the above descriptions are a perfect characterization of me for the last three weeks.
It's been a long time since I felt the rush associated with receiving a phone call or counting the hours until I see someone again. From the first exchange, there was an openness, a calmness despite the excitement and honesty. It didn't feel like a game of chess or reading between the lines. We shared good conversations about important topics quickly and have laughed more in a few weeks than I have in several years.
At times, I get nervous about how fast this is all going. We both are on the same page though which is reassuring. We both like where this is headed and are trying to enjoy our time.
He's away for another seven days. It's been four so far. He's called twice. And while we have only talked for mere minutes, those conversations have been the sweetest in my week.
I can't count the reasons I feel this way. He treats me terribly well; he speaks his mind; he shows affection freely and with words; he is funny and sweet; at times, I think he can read my mind.
I want to show him off to everyone in my life - but at the same time, want to lock him away just for myself.
Every once in a while I chastize myself for allowing another person to put such a spring in my step and smile on my face. Shouldn't I always be this happy with life? I haven't figured that out yet but I don't beat up on myself too long.
I'm taking all the happy I can get at the moment, eating it up, wrapping myself in it like a fuzzy warm blanket and thinking this is what I deserve.
Tuesday, January 15, 2008
Thursday, January 10, 2008
yesterday
From Jonathon Cainer's site: For January 9th, 2008
Science fiction writers often postulate parallel universes, places where all is the same as in this world except one key point. There's a parallel universe somewhere in which big historic events turned out differently, or in which you took a subtly, but crucially, different path at your last set of crossroads. Currently, there's a parallel universe in which you half wish you were living. But if you WERE in that world, you'd want to be in this one. Especially if you knew what lay in store.
hmmm...familiar theme?
Science fiction writers often postulate parallel universes, places where all is the same as in this world except one key point. There's a parallel universe somewhere in which big historic events turned out differently, or in which you took a subtly, but crucially, different path at your last set of crossroads. Currently, there's a parallel universe in which you half wish you were living. But if you WERE in that world, you'd want to be in this one. Especially if you knew what lay in store.
hmmm...familiar theme?
feelings
Okay, so I stopped taking my vitamins over the last few weeks. No real reason, just got out of the habit.
Some of them were recommended to counter my mood swings associated with PMS. More and more often I was becoming agitated, panicky, depressed for days. The B6 acts as a anti-depressant as it raises the seratonine level in your system. It's been working like a charm. Until now. Because I stopped taking them.
Over the last couple of days the panic returned. I am anxious about things at work mostly. a bit of life in general but these swings remind me of a time when that's all I felt. And even though I know it will pass (and hopefully soon since I'm taking the B6 again), it makes me feel uneasy sitting with all of these emotions again.
On the up-side (and yes this is somewhat like burying the lead), I have another set of emotions that stem from meeting someone new and clicking. Had a great date which last several hours, only to come home to find an email waiting for me thanking me for a great time and making further plans. Now these are feelings I can contend with.
Some of them were recommended to counter my mood swings associated with PMS. More and more often I was becoming agitated, panicky, depressed for days. The B6 acts as a anti-depressant as it raises the seratonine level in your system. It's been working like a charm. Until now. Because I stopped taking them.
Over the last couple of days the panic returned. I am anxious about things at work mostly. a bit of life in general but these swings remind me of a time when that's all I felt. And even though I know it will pass (and hopefully soon since I'm taking the B6 again), it makes me feel uneasy sitting with all of these emotions again.
On the up-side (and yes this is somewhat like burying the lead), I have another set of emotions that stem from meeting someone new and clicking. Had a great date which last several hours, only to come home to find an email waiting for me thanking me for a great time and making further plans. Now these are feelings I can contend with.
Thursday, January 3, 2008
time traveling
Over the holidays, after my stint with my folks, I traveled to Toronto and Waterloo to see friends. It was a short visit but worth every second.
I spent a good chunk of time with everyone I wanted to see: Caught up with Sheri, Aileen and Rankine (Brett's friends); Roula; and Mel and Jeff. Unfortunately, fate intervened and I didn't get to see Todd (who the only one really on the list when I started out).
Mel and I hit the couch on Sunday night and watched about 8 epiosodes of an old favourite tv show. The one that stuck with me was where the main character has a spell cast that allows her to travel back in time so she can make different choices.
The thought has stuck with me for days. But it's the theme that's been running through my life for the last several months....looking at the choices I've made.
I mentioned this to an old friend I've reconnected with and he asked me what I would change. So many things ran through my mind...some little, some major. Words and actions I would take back; Words and actions I would push forward. He said he thinks about this, too. And actually apologized for treating me poorly about 20 years ago. Despite the time lapse, it felt good to hear the words.
He pressed me on what I would change. Of course, the main thing that jumped to my mind was my relationship with Dave. I would change how I ran away from the fact that he loved me. If I could do it over again, I would try to be more brave.
And again, that's the lesson I take today. Being brave means listening to what's sometimes buried really far down. It means taking risks and living honestly. If you don't, then what's the point at all?
I spent a good chunk of time with everyone I wanted to see: Caught up with Sheri, Aileen and Rankine (Brett's friends); Roula; and Mel and Jeff. Unfortunately, fate intervened and I didn't get to see Todd (who the only one really on the list when I started out).
Mel and I hit the couch on Sunday night and watched about 8 epiosodes of an old favourite tv show. The one that stuck with me was where the main character has a spell cast that allows her to travel back in time so she can make different choices.
The thought has stuck with me for days. But it's the theme that's been running through my life for the last several months....looking at the choices I've made.
I mentioned this to an old friend I've reconnected with and he asked me what I would change. So many things ran through my mind...some little, some major. Words and actions I would take back; Words and actions I would push forward. He said he thinks about this, too. And actually apologized for treating me poorly about 20 years ago. Despite the time lapse, it felt good to hear the words.
He pressed me on what I would change. Of course, the main thing that jumped to my mind was my relationship with Dave. I would change how I ran away from the fact that he loved me. If I could do it over again, I would try to be more brave.
And again, that's the lesson I take today. Being brave means listening to what's sometimes buried really far down. It means taking risks and living honestly. If you don't, then what's the point at all?
Wednesday, January 2, 2008
health resolution
I tend not to make New Year's resolutions. If I don't want to change something the fact that I swore "this year will be different" won't be the motivation to make me stick to it. Like everything else, you need to want to.
So there are at least two things I want to change for 2008.
1) lose 30 pounds.
And it's not about dieting persay. It's about exercising and eating better. Which will result in me losing weight. I've never been as heavy as I have in the last three years. I've always had an abundance of energy and not get winded from walking up a set of stairs. Not so at the moment. Well, it's better since I've already lost about 20 pds (if not more).
I also know that being more active keeps my mood up. Good segway.
2) Consistent exercise 4 times per week.
This last year has been great for me getting to the gym. Now I want to step it up a little and add another day, regularly. Or exercise of some sort. I'm getting somewhat addicted to the feeling but not in a compulsive way.
3) stop drinking.
Patterns repeat themselves too often in this area. Controlled drinking for many people is possible. Growing up with two alcoholic parents makes this possibility, at least for me, dangerous. Plus, if I'm trying to stay fit and feel good then alcohol has a negative impact on both these areas. Empty calories and depressed mood are most of what I get out of it. And that's on a good day.
As with everything else in life, I will take it one day at a time.
So there are at least two things I want to change for 2008.
1) lose 30 pounds.
And it's not about dieting persay. It's about exercising and eating better. Which will result in me losing weight. I've never been as heavy as I have in the last three years. I've always had an abundance of energy and not get winded from walking up a set of stairs. Not so at the moment. Well, it's better since I've already lost about 20 pds (if not more).
I also know that being more active keeps my mood up. Good segway.
2) Consistent exercise 4 times per week.
This last year has been great for me getting to the gym. Now I want to step it up a little and add another day, regularly. Or exercise of some sort. I'm getting somewhat addicted to the feeling but not in a compulsive way.
3) stop drinking.
Patterns repeat themselves too often in this area. Controlled drinking for many people is possible. Growing up with two alcoholic parents makes this possibility, at least for me, dangerous. Plus, if I'm trying to stay fit and feel good then alcohol has a negative impact on both these areas. Empty calories and depressed mood are most of what I get out of it. And that's on a good day.
As with everything else in life, I will take it one day at a time.
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