time traveling

Over the holidays, after my stint with my folks, I traveled to Toronto and Waterloo to see friends. It was a short visit but worth every second.

I spent a good chunk of time with everyone I wanted to see: Caught up with Sheri, Aileen and Rankine (Brett's friends); Roula; and Mel and Jeff. Unfortunately, fate intervened and I didn't get to see Todd (who the only one really on the list when I started out).

Mel and I hit the couch on Sunday night and watched about 8 epiosodes of an old favourite tv show. The one that stuck with me was where the main character has a spell cast that allows her to travel back in time so she can make different choices.

The thought has stuck with me for days. But it's the theme that's been running through my life for the last several months....looking at the choices I've made.

I mentioned this to an old friend I've reconnected with and he asked me what I would change. So many things ran through my mind...some little, some major. Words and actions I would take back; Words and actions I would push forward. He said he thinks about this, too. And actually apologized for treating me poorly about 20 years ago. Despite the time lapse, it felt good to hear the words.

He pressed me on what I would change. Of course, the main thing that jumped to my mind was my relationship with Dave. I would change how I ran away from the fact that he loved me. If I could do it over again, I would try to be more brave.

And again, that's the lesson I take today. Being brave means listening to what's sometimes buried really far down. It means taking risks and living honestly. If you don't, then what's the point at all?